Thursday, March 26, 2009


Well this isn't the first time i've thought about this.
My original plan was to hold up in my house since we have guns ammo and a reloading machine to make more ammo. the main part of the house is higher off the ground we have steel doors with tiny windows only at the top so we'd only have to re-enforce the basement windows which can be done easily have a generator if the power goes out. BUT we of course don't have enough stockpiled foods.
So i guess i would have to abandon that idea and head my ass to a Sam's Club or a Costco. but bring my guns and ammo and reloading machine which means bringing all the supplies which would suck but could be done.

tried doing a panorama pic of my desk

my desk is my vanity area so i have lots of makeup and different products at arms length within easy reach (especially stuff i use a lot. Toner, moisturizers, lip balms, lipglosses, perfume oil, powders)

ok so the panorama part didn't work all that well since my stuff is in more of a U shape around my "work area" of my desk. I tried doing more of a 360 shot but that didn't work either so this was the best i got.

here is a pic of my desk area (in front of a closet with the door taken off it's the second closet in my room and didn't get used much i need to hang a sheet or something over the door but in the closet on boxes i have my subwoofer for my computer speakers which is kinda nifty)

Thursday, March 19, 2009

The breakup

*edited to add*... I dated this guy in 2001 and early 2002.....well my boyfriend had kind of been busy and not able to see me or just not feeling that he needed to see me or whatever so i called him up and told him to eff off and I wanted my shi*t then I hung up on him. Not the nicest but I was really fed up with excuses at that point. He had been working 5 mins from my house for months and never made time to see me (he lived an hour away) he worked long hours but being literally 5 mins from my house he could have at least come over on his lunch to eat. His lunch was at the time i was making dinner anyway.

Tuesday, March 17, 2009

my dad goes to the doctor tomorrow.
I guess we will find out his chemo schedule or something. If he thinks he will be able to work thru chemo he's out of his tree.
I don't want to post much about this to my main blog because that is linked to my facebook and I have family on facebook and i don't know if really anyone is supposed to know yet.
I know these spots on my dad's liver are small but it still worries me.
He had a mass removed from his colon and NOW spots on his liver... this could just be the beginning of bad shit.
My dad is a smoker so I know that doesn't help things. My grandma (my dad's mother) passed away before she was even 60 from cancer. She had lung cancer. She was a smoker for years but had quit for at least 10 before she passed.
My dad has no intention of quitting. I mean after all his colon issues he still hasn't changed his eating habits for god's sake. You'd think he wouldn't want to have the same freakin' problems again. This is my father for ya. Stubborn and will only do what he wants to do even if it will kill him.
We've known this for years though. When he first started having issues. Kidney stones here other stuff there. Then the colon issue and he had the colostomy bag for quite a few months.
I told my mom ages ago that he'll never change and to get a nice big ole insurance policy on him cus at this rate he won't make it to old age.
Pretty fucked up huh. You'd think that someone who just had his first grandchild would want to at least stick around awhile. Maybe see the kid grow up.

The shamwow sells itself

ShamWow by Robert Banh

yes i bought shamwows i had to the commercials are awesome. also have aqua globes, mighty mend it. and other various items over the years. i LOOOV the as seen on tv section at walgreens.

I'll spend my golden years in oahu,hawaii

this would be perfect, beach i could be tan all year and it's paradise

Monday, March 16, 2009

Eddie Izzard

love Eddie Izzard!!

Thursday, March 12, 2009

Season 3 promo

old but i had to post it

My fave part of the 2009 oscars
Seth Rogen and James Franco

Monday, March 09, 2009

Skin Care: Target Women

this is awesome

Sunday, March 08, 2009

YouTube - Freaks and Geeks - Freaks vs. Lindsay

love this show

Saturday, March 07, 2009

The Tudors Season 3 Promo (

can't wait


Your result for The Sexuality Spectrum Test...

Mostly Straight

You scored 39 (-52 being completely gay, 0 being bisexual, and 52 being completely straight)

You are mainly heterosexual, but you have a few homosexual qualities. You much prefer the opposite sex, but you have a mild interest in the same sex. If you disapprove of homosexuality, you may act overly straight to deny your slight gay tendencies. If you are comfortable with your sexuality, you might be up for experimenting with members of the same sex if given the opportunity. If you are sexually inexperienced, you could shift on the spectrum at a later time depending on whether you have sexual encounters with the same sex and whether or not you like those encounters.

Take The Sexuality Spectrum Test
at HelloQuizzy

ok i got mostly straight because i used to make out with my girl friends at the bar and we'd get free drinks. lol but chicks never turned me on or anything

YouTube - Labyrinth - Jennifer connelly David Bowie End Scene

of course one of my fave scenes but i love this whole movie

My favorite lines from 'Labyrinth'

everything Jareth says in the last scene

"Everything that you have wanted I have done. You asked that the child be taken, I took him. You cowered before me, I was frightening. I have reordered time. I have turned the world upside-down and I have done it all for you. I am exhausted from living up to your expectations of me. Isn't that generous?"

"Look Sarah. Look at what I'm offering you. Your dreams. I ask for so little. Just let me rule you and you can have everything that you want. Just fear me, love me, do as I say and I will be your slave."

Sun city,arizona made me homesick

visiting my grandpa/great grandma always had me wanting to go home. I guess if we stayed at a hotel i wouldn't have wanted to leave but staying at Nana's house sucked. she'd turn the air conditioning off at night and all the fans off so i'd be hot as hell. She had food so old in the fridges it wasn't even funny. I once opened up an orange soda i would generally drink out of the can but thankfully i poured it into a glass and it came out BROWN. Granted this was years ago when i was like 15 when the house belonged to my great grandparents but my grandpa who lives in that house isn't much better thankfully his girlfriend cleans the place and gets rid of stuff that is too old. if it were just my Gramps it would not be good at all.

Thursday, March 05, 2009

Don't say 'cunt' around me

I've always hated this word. and it's used to down someone. why are all horrible words generally terms to do with females??

but generally used in the context of talking about women in general. my brother had a friend who instead of just saying women or girls or whatever would just use the term bitches "lets go meet some bitches" it's degrading and rude and i hate it

Wednesday, March 04, 2009


ok dorky and cheesy yes but i LOVE One Tree Hill and this is one of my fave speeches from the show. said by the dreamy Lucas.
"Remember tonight, for it is the beginning of always. A promise. Like a
reward for persisting through life so long alone. The belief in each
other and the possibility of love. A decision, to ignore or simply rise
above the pain of the past. The covenant, which at once binds two souls
and yet severs prior ties. The celebration, of the chance for two will
always be stronger than one. Like a team, braced against the tempest’s
of the world. And love... will always be the guiding force in our lives.
For tonight is mere formality.. only an announcement to the world for
feelings long held. Promises made long ago -- in the sacred space of our

Sunday, March 01, 2009

Where's the 'undo' button?

i'd redo lots of stuff, first guy i had sex with i'd take that one back for sure. My relationship with nick i'd never have gotten into that one. caused nothing but pain for years and years and years AFTER we broke up (i mean damn just not talk to me like NORMAL exs)

Probably would have stopped talking to toxic friends quicker